i’m pretty sure my entire life is a weird balance between this quote:
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened. ” - Douglas Coupland (Life After God)
and this one:
“It doesn’t happen all at once,’ said the Skin Horse. ‘You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.” - Margery Williams Bianco (The Velveteen Rabbit)
i dont know if this actually makes sense. i’m not sad today. or lonely. i’m just lost. i’m having a hard time finding whats up and whats down and whats broken and whats not. i’m just scrambled. i hope it doesn’t last long.